Perfect moments

Have you ever had one of those moments with your kids where everything is perfect, just as it should be. Not only do you not want it to end but you wouldn't change anything in the world at that moment...perfect...overwhelming love.

One night when I put Miles to bed (in my bed) we lay there on the pillows looking at each other. I said, "I love you." Miles says, "No" with a smile. I say, "Can you say love?" "No," he says. Then looks up at me and says, "lub mama," and smiles. He pointed to my nose and said, "mama noh". Then to my eye, "mama eye". Then my hair, "mama..." (he can't really say hair yet). We giggled, cuddled, hugged...perfect. He reached up and made a kiss sound with his mouth, which means thank you for him (his *very* short version of sign language - it went from the real sign of thank you to blowing kisses and now just kiss noises). I said, "you're welcome baby, thank YOU. Mama loves you". Then he gave me a kiss on my cheek.

It is moments like that when I am thankful for every single doctor that is in our lives (especially those that have saved his life), for every nurse that has ever helped him, every PT, OT and ST, everyone that has helped bring our precious boy to where he is today...here...in my bed...being silly.

This song (below) reminds me of every time I have had to turn him over to an anesthesiologist for surgery, or watch him in that bed as he recovered. Everytime he has had some test done that he hates or gotten blood drawn or a shot, every time he has looked at me and said, "ow mama"...all of those necessary things that he (we) hates. All of the parents that want to run with their child instead of hand them over, that is what I think of. After that perfect moment with Miles at bedtime, those are the things that I think of when I hear this song.

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
they're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?